I’ve forgotten how to relate. Spent a lifetime of thinking the possibility of a relationship was more important than having a relationship. Work has to go into it to bring it value. But, no. I focused on the possibility. And now it’s no longer possible. I’m an old man. The end.
Tag Archives: lost
All that could have been
Really feeling the span of decades. The clicking of time. The frittering away of time. The waste of time. Years looking forward to possibilities for the weekend, sitting on porches and watching, hoping, dreaming. And soon the discomfort of ages, the pivot to spot-check behind me as earth passes by, feeling its draft, the breeze …
desires unmet, stillborn dreams
blue tinged memories of 27 year hopes and wishes visions of union souls entertwined and understanding drunk on the possibilities intoxication, wandered, lost focus, lost track missed connections never met, never talked, never made dreams happen 30 year hunger 35 year worry 40 year exhaustion 45 year giving up untie me i wanted something, i …
Crumble, Fall, Break
It’s scary when we see our friends in long-term relationships splitting up. We look up to them as the Lovers-Forever people. They are our rock, our hope. When they eventually call it quits on each other, that rock crumbles. It shakes us up, destroys our belief in love eternal. If they didn’t have it after …
Something “New”
Old news: The coffee shop known as Mojo’s Daily Grind has changed owners and is under new management. Gone is the owner who bought the place from Wade and ran it into the ground. New owners. So there’s hope. New news: Tonight I knew I didn’t want to spend the entire evening at home. Again. …