It is July 25, 2020. I have now been in Austin, TX for 20 years. I still question my decisions. It’s weird to remember back when I was this young, hopeful dude. Had a dotcom job waiting on me as I packed up 1/3 of my belongings in my ’94 Mitsubishi Mirage, waved to my …
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Flatline Lifeline
Feeling rather numb at the moment. Aside from the near event of SXSW, and the distant threat of COVID19, I’m kinda…flat. Actually thought about some counseling, to give that a try again. Looked up a few local providers; it’s all so weird, all these specialists and clinic with generalists. I don’t f’n know what I …
Grinding Teeth
Doing that thing again where I have hunger but no stimulus. Needs, but no motivation. Getting bored easily, chewing at the straps, shaking the leg. Doesn’t take long after an amazing trip to fall right back into gravity. I’m kinda like Kerouac, never able to settle long before the itch for novelty overrides any need …
Pump
The shit I could’ve accomplished in life if I had been given the least bit of confidence in what I was doing early on. It’s not the dance, it’s not the singing, it’s not the performance, it’s the proving that you can and will rise above the baseline and move into the spectacle that will …
In Full
Today is an auspicious day, friends. After 22 years and change, my student loan is a nice, round zero. Done. Finished. Paid in full. For the first time in my adult life, I am debt-free. I owe nobody a god-damned thing. Slow and steady wins this race, sure, but I should never have gotten into …