Palabra Jot

I’m thinking I need to sign up for some sort of creative writing class. I mean, sure, I like to write, and I think I’m fine at it, but I want to be more together with it, more regular, more devoted, more productive. Y’know? Something to knock me out of my doldrums.

See, I don’t do well when left to my own devices. I need a regimen, a schedule, a habit, a hobby. Y’know? So if I was in a class, or a writing group, I’d be more with-it. Seems the only time I write creatively is to rise to the challenge. My previous short, “To Dust“, was  written for an anthology I was invited to join; I had a deadline. I finished the first draft in a hard week or writing, finished the second and final drafts the next week. I rose to that challenge and wrote a good piece.

But that was over a year ago. I haven’t written anything since. I need motivation; I need a pitchfork in my back. Y’know?

The Austin Library has a Write Club class that meets every month for a few hours; thinking about joining along, see what’s up. Can’t hurt, right? I need to get more involved my hobby. Something. Something.

Signage

I can’t keep going on like this. Those of you who know me know that I’m not one for airing out my dirty laundry, but I’m in pain. Death is not the worst outcome…an empty life is much worse. I keep wondering what will finally cause me to break inside, what it will take to snap my mind in two. How far until I’m one of the hollow shells standing at the intersection holding a sign declaring my descent. Hungry. Anything helps. God bless.

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Ill Thrift

When I was in college in that tiny little town in southwest Arkansas, I would sometimes get sick and go see a doctor. One of the few that I could afford was this guy in a small clinic on the other side of town. At the end of the session, he’d check off a preprinted diagnosis form and hand it to me with any prescription orders and send me to check out.

I got a sense that he was, in some way, a classic sort of country doctor, because the form had this one diagnosis that always caught my eye: failure to thrive. Of all the diagnoses on that form, that’s the one that made me chuckle. Of course, it’s a bad thing to have, but c’mon, that’s a great turn of phrase.

I kinda felt like, socially and economically, that definitely was my Twenties. Rough.