Same company, same job, new role. Heavy duties. Soul-crushing. Instead of making sure typical users can play Farmville while on Skype with company hardware, I’ll be managing a room full of test systems, each identical except for their own particular quirks, while I attempt to run a range of benchmarks on them to determine how …
Category Archives: Journal
Shadow
I have heard of the Shadow. It is that part of ourselves that we do not acknowledge. It is the unlived life. It is the dog we do not feed. It is the devil, but it is not evil; it is our salvation from our own egos. I’ve never heard of this definition until lately. …
Muted
For the record, all is not quiet on the Western front. Voice is silent, but life is loud. Busy, but not busy enough, or in the right ways. Tuning out and taking in, watching videos and seeing noone. Inspiration has been an ice queen to me. Serendipity a cold shoulder. The Fates, stirring my life, …
Cold Firebox
A Friday night evaluation shows me completely disengaged and unmotivated. The boiler firebox is full of cold ash. There are a handful of things I could be doing, projects I could work on, things on a to-do list to knock off, but the fire is out. A train engine doesn’t serve to drive itself across …
Hard Work Days Off
I feel like I should write something. My head is too fried. Work today was full of suck and confusion. Information overload. Being put into a role that demands a lot of attention to a high amount of detail about a lot of systems concurrently. The guy doing it has been doing it for over …