I can only feel something good when I’m drunk. Because I’m nervous as fuck when I’m around you people. And that fact makes me more nervous.

I keep hoping I’ll have a breakthrough, a glorious moment when I’ll realize where I actually am, what the consequences actually are, and where I’ll stop giving actual fucks and be the amazing man I was meant to be.

But that hasn’t come yet.

Published by Shawn

He's just this guy, you know?