Feeling rather numb at the moment. Aside from the near event of SXSW, and the distant threat of COVID19, I’m kinda…flat. Actually thought about some counseling, to give that a try again. Looked up a few local providers; it’s all so weird, all these specialists and clinic with generalists. I don’t f’n know what I …
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Clutched
The horse I ride in on is a 14-year-old Honda Civic with 147,000 miles. It is completely bought and paid for, and completely mine. And it has problems: old mare problems. I’ve been having issues where my transmission was taking too long to shift between gears when the engine is cold. For a year, I …
Sick Broken Soldiers
Every day, I feel the damning realization that I am getting old. Things fall apart. Currently, I am sitting at the confluence of several factors that are creating the perfect storm for health issues, and every one of them is aiming to wreck my personal savings. When I signed on with my employer, I turned …
Deflating
No, I don’t need to be doing this. No. Not right now. Shit. No. Trying to write some code to parse my pay stubs from my last job into a usable spreadsheet format, so I can do some math and consider signing on with unemployment insurance. The mental gears are working and I’m diagnosing the …
Back To the Corner
I went out for a high-speed drive across town for a sense of perspective. Needed to get myself outside of myself for a while because I’m really, really in the middle of it. Right now, I’m a dog in a corner, and I’m ready to bite. Today, I got a bomb dropped on me in …