I think I need to come to terms with the fact that I’m no longer a movie guy. Looking at my media server, there are 130 movies out of the entire collection that are unwatched after years, despite my best intentions. I’m never home long enough to watch anything longer than 30 minutes before passing …
Tag Archives: existentialism
Kein Traum jetzt, Arbeit morgen
My two weeks of “vacation” ends today. Tomorrow, I have to go back to the office. I’m not looking forward to the questions, because I just don’t have any good answers. “Have a good break?” “No.” “Hope you’re well-rested?” “Also, no.” “Took the time off to recharge and reconnect with your loved ones?” “Look, I …
To Do Is To Be
Constant existential nagging. Feeling it pretty bad lately. The stable half that pushes for self-sufficiency Is in a lockstep battle with The unstable half that pushes for self-agency. I don’t think I’ll ever be fully settled in my life, One of those lives lived in A permanent state of temporality. I think it’s a side …
Bump and Grind
Really feeling it, the existential nature of my own reality. So bedraggled. Not enough sleep, not with my need to live a worthwhile life conflicting with my need to hold down a job. This weekend, I finally caught up on my sleep and am well-rested. Unfortunately, I’m rested and awake enough to realize just how …
In the End
Same company, same job, new role. Heavy duties. Soul-crushing. Instead of making sure typical users can play Farmville while on Skype with company hardware, I’ll be managing a room full of test systems, each identical except for their own particular quirks, while I attempt to run a range of benchmarks on them to determine how …