Let it be said that when I am at a table by myself with a book, when I am alone in my apartment working on a project, when I am driving a lonesome road with the music, I am truly happy and sufficiently content.
At the same stroke, I am also terribly lonely and mildly discontent at the spectre of being alone every time I am in these happy places.
It is from being around people that I manage to stay grounded in reality, that I somehow retain my ability to talk, to formulate coherent sentences to convey meaning and message without noise or babble. The more I am alone, the less coherent my thoughts become until the conversations are all in my head and you only hear what leaks out.
So how do I reconcile these two polar extremes? What is the middle ground between being happy with productivity and being not lonely?