Recently, I made the judgment call to walk away from a group of people. These are otherwise decent folk, but I realized two weeks ago that I am not of their kind. After some time of sitting with them at the cafe, making smalltalk and trying to get involved, it became painfully apparent to me …
Category Archives: Journal
Youth Misdirector
On Monday morning I stumbled across the photo stream of a man who I respected for a while twenty-three years ago. He was my youth minister at Beech Street FBC, back when I was an evangelical born-again. In his stream, he posted old photos of his time there, the years he was at the helm …
Creep
Every once in a while, my self-image gets a hard reset, and the positive, hopeful, well-adjusted facades I’ve built crumble to reveal the greasy machinery underneath. It takes a long, long time to build it back up. So apologies to anybody I creep out, worry, or push away. I’m working on it.
Making Room for Two
If I am to overcome being alone, my first step would be to acknowledge that I would no longer be living for myself; that I, being not alone, must consider the partner in my decisions; that my self-intent necessitates the mental presence of another person in my self-view. That I must change my thinking and …
Gum Shoes
Cannot shake the feeling that I’m wrong. Somewhere, I made the wrong choice, and everything afterwards is a byproduct of that fault. It would be nice if I knew, if I could navelgaze enough to determine where it happened, or if I could have the foresight to see where to get back on track. But …