I am ten years old. A decade ago this month, I set out to quit smoking for the second and final time. My first attempt in October of 2003 failed miserably when I tried to go cold turkey. To soften the blow of being completely off of nicotine during that attempt, I gave myself congratulatory …
Category Archives: Health
Sick Broken Soldiers
Every day, I feel the damning realization that I am getting old. Things fall apart. Currently, I am sitting at the confluence of several factors that are creating the perfect storm for health issues, and every one of them is aiming to wreck my personal savings. When I signed on with my employer, I turned …
Fourty-One Done
On the occasion of my 41st birthday, I’m checking in to give a status report. Went out for sushi, which was a treat. Went alone, but that’s for lack of pulling people into my life. Easier most times to go it alone. Had some miso, some yellow tail nigiri, and a Philadelphia roll, and I …
NO-ga
I’m quitting yoga. Spare me your admonitions. It’s been a lonely, solitary journey wracked with frustration, pain, stress, embarrassment, and emotional unease. Sure, I’ve noticed a physical change (when I actually stick to the regimen), but otherwise, there has been nothing positive about it. Those people in that room are in a different social class …
Bent Up
Agitated beyond need. They tell me to be kind, forgiving, compassionate to myself. That sounds nice. Pretty words. But tonight’s yoga practice has left me agitated, unwilling to stop feeling embarrassed for not getting it, for not understanding, for not having any sense of what to do with my body. I have just enough awareness …