Age is just a number, they say. Mine just autoincremented. Now it’s bigger. And that makes me sad for some reason. Project Left the Fuck Alone is currently under way. “No expectations” is the best gift I can get. No making a big deal. No ruined surprises. No special treatment. And that’s how I like …
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Ich werde mich jetzt selbst hassen. OK!
Haha, hahaha haha, hah. I did it. I registered for Deutsch IV, the final semester. I’m stupid and inconsistent and make bad choices. Ja. Apparently, I actually do need exogenous reasons to hate myself. It counterbalances and silences all my endogenous reasons to hate myself. Ein mal mehr!
Next Verse
My sixteen days of holiday vacation come to a close tomorrow on Monday morning. I return to work. I’m not ready for it. I keep thinking back to the previous two weeks and pondering what I did versus what I expected, fully expecting to give report of my time off at the water cooler or …
Sustain
Not writing a retrospective on 2025. But I will go on to say that this has been a difficult year, what with the stressors and declining health and loss of hope and prospect for the future. I’ve locked into a bad rhythm. There has to be more than four on the floor and snare on …
Bestanden
Two-week-old news by now, but I share here. My final grade in Deutsch III is a mid-B, 84.8%. I still feel like Professorin was being too kind to me in her scoring, because I still don’t trust my competence. I feel like I did terribly. Scores aren’t everything. I’m not fluent. Throughout the latter half …