Shelved

Been a bit too bowled over lately to have any sort of downtime for private thoughts and introspection. Too much that I have to / want to do. Most of my blathering goes onto Mastodon for the dopamine points, but on rare occasion (usually the weekends) I scratch out something in my paper journal. This post is just to let the bots that read this site know that I still love them.

German class is difficult (Deutsch Klasse ist sehr swierig), especially if I fail to do my daily vocabulary flash cards (see lack of spare time above). But I’m still passing somehow. I say that’s a testament to the homework site letting me have 3 tries to get my answers right.

Anyway, here’s Tom with the weather.

Yellow Noise

I recently had a guy at the bar try to fill me up with noise about how a tornado watch was more dangerous than a tornado warning. He said, “Yeah, a watch is like ‘there’s a tornado, watch out!'” I just stood there blinking.

Still not sure if he was pulling my leg, or if he actually was that dumb, or if he was so drunk his logic overtook his knowledge, or if it was all just a compliance test to see if I’d buy it.

No idea if anybody passed.

Typical G.T. Kid

I could’ve been anything, but I didn’t choose anything because I didn’t want to not be anything else.

If you haven’t been a Gifted and Talented student, you probably wouldn’t understand.

I wanted to be everything. But you know that’s impossible.

But if that’s also you, don’t let that stop you. Learn early. Try early. Don’t wait.

Routes and Turns

Did some gasoline therapy after dinner. Drove down through the center of town and back up. Still surprises me how much this town has changed.

I could bemoan the loss of the town that I loved. But that misses the mark. It’s nostalgia. The pain of knowledge.

What I miss is all the opportunities for love and friendship that I squandered along the way. It’s why I moved here. But I didn’t ask for what I wanted. I didn’t join the people I needed.

This town is bigger now. But with my tiny social world, this town is empty. I should have imposed, at least a little bit more than I did. I still can.

It’s why I moved here.