Looking forward to the end of this semester of German II. I’m burned out. Given my struggles this semester, I’ll never achieve competence level A2. German I and II are considered A1, and I’m a middling student at it. Immigration wants higher than A2, so there goes that. At this point, I can’t even remember words or how to speak it. There are so many tiny little pieces and rules and it has blown out past a point where I can hold the pieces together in my head straight enough to form a sentence.
I learned how to speak English over a decade of my childhood, picking up pieces along the way, incorporating them into what was already automatic. But learning a new language in my 50’s is terrible. I’m having to take my own understanding of language apart, to pull the wires up from the works and start labeling the parts of speech. It’s blowing it all out as I unpack it, and even my grasp on English is slipping. I just don’t want to talk anymore.
I need a rest.