Y’know how a quarter-wave stub of coax feedline has interesting properties? Like, if you attach one end to an antenna analyzer and left the other end open at 1/4λ down, then the open circuit looks like a short on the analyzer; zero Ohms resistance. And if you short the end, it looks like an open; …
Monthly Archives: August 2019
Tomorrow’s Naïveté, Abroad
Once upon a time, three months ago, I was reading a Rick Steves’ European travel book from 2012 and having predictive visions of what Europe would be like once I finally got there. And I forgot those memories until just now. And damn, they are quaint memories of the future. They just don’t jive with …
Shut Down
This world of mine is an endless chain of conflicts and missteps having the effect of turning strength into weakness, and weakness into collapse. It crawls into the nape of my neck and whispers, “Give up.” My recent days are littered with minor actions sparked by self-protective instinct and frustration, which return to me with …
Forgotten Knowledge
Once upon a time, I had such an intimate knowledge of my own computer’s filesystem. Like, I knew exactly where I stuffed a file, because I had my own filing system, and could recall that image of a scan of a hand drawing I did. I knew it was in the “hand drawn” folder in …
desires unmet, stillborn dreams
blue tinged memories of 27 year hopes and wishes visions of union souls entertwined and understanding drunk on the possibilities intoxication, wandered, lost focus, lost track missed connections never met, never talked, never made dreams happen 30 year hunger 35 year worry 40 year exhaustion 45 year giving up untie me i wanted something, i …