Grinding Teeth

Doing that thing again where I have hunger but no stimulus. Needs, but no motivation. Getting bored easily, chewing at the straps, shaking the leg. Doesn’t take long after an amazing trip to fall right back into gravity. I’m kinda like Kerouac, never able to settle long before the itch for novelty overrides any need […]

Pump

The shit I could’ve accomplished in life if I had been given the least bit of confidence in what I was doing early on. It’s not the dance, it’s not the singing, it’s not the performance, it’s the proving that you can and will rise above the baseline and move into the spectacle that will […]

In Full

Today is an auspicious day, friends. After 22 years and change, my student loan is a nice, round zero. Done. Finished. Paid in full. For the first time in my adult life, I am debt-free. I owe nobody a god-damned thing. Slow and steady wins this race, sure, but I should never have gotten into […]

Ice, Your Only Rivers Run Cold

At the end of an Austin ice storm. Couped up at home all day, working through VPN, bored to tears. Streets were slick and icy earlier, but the stiff dry wind has made all the ice disappear. Now it’s just bitter cold. Couped up inside. I need some wind to evaporate the ice keeping me […]

Burn Fuel

It’s almost 1AM and I’m more or less feeling my oats. I have to wake up in 5 hours. It’s not surprising that I turn to the liquid pleasures to make my life feel like it’s worth it. Really, though, it burns through my reserves of serotonin so the rest of my day is an […]