(Phaysis) » friendship http://www.phaysis.com One bulb shy... Thu, 09 Feb 2012 04:00:23 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 Adhesive http://www.phaysis.com/2011/05/27/adhesive/ http://www.phaysis.com/2011/05/27/adhesive/#comments Sat, 28 May 2011 04:45:44 +0000 Shawn http://www.phaysis.com/?p=892 To be fair, the friendship I destroyed was mended. You can still see the chips, cracks, and glue smudges, but it’s functional again. It took some difficult talking, some private thinking, and a mutual redefinition to make it work. A little bit of distance is good medicine, too. We’ll revisit the matter in a few days.

I never did learn how to dance without stepping on toes.

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I found out who I am and what I’m made of. It’s not pretty.

]]> http://www.phaysis.com/2011/05/24/a-bad-way/feed/ 2 Ab Use and Neglect http://www.phaysis.com/2009/12/08/ab-use-and-neglect/ http://www.phaysis.com/2009/12/08/ab-use-and-neglect/#comments Wed, 09 Dec 2009 04:37:50 +0000 Shawn http://www.phaysis.com/?p=414 So, it seems your humble author has finally gone and done it. I drank the Kool-Aid(tm). And now you can find me on Facebook. No sense linking, because most of you are already on my friends list.

And why did I do it? Kinda because I don’t hang out with anyone. There’s work, coffee, home, and there’s not too many people at each that I chat with. Y’know? More my fault than anyone else’s. So Facebook is a stand-in, a proxy for friendship. I always say “friendship is proximity”, and I still believe it, so if this is what I need to do to keep my friendships from fading completely, then joining is what I shall do.

However, I do blame my recent Facebook fetishism for my journal’s neglect. Funny, but I’m doing the same exact things with Facebook that caused me to leave IRC: mumble rambling WTF-isms and wait for responses. And wait. And wait. Projects kinda take a back seat. Funny, that.

So yeah. Find me there. If you ask nicely, I might accept your friendship.

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I just…settle…for less than the best.

Is this a function of turning the corner into middle age? What’s with the fear of rising up to Change Things? Fear of failure is inviting failure. I want to keep going along with the shitty things in my life, and that is most troubling to me. It hurts to make change; it costs a lot of effort. I know the rewards are worth more than the investment. I know all this shit. So why remain? Why persist?

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