1999-09-27 The Farm: thoughts (from the archives)

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[thoughts] something to consider.

Seeds of love

I witnessed the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen online this weekend. What I talk about is art. “Art online? There’ve been paintings posted online since the web began,” you say. No. This goes beyond pixelized retakes of realspace expressions of art. What I talk about is people going beyond the use of this medium, the web, to make us think, or make us know, or make us do something. No. What these people do is use the technology we have to make us feel.

Imagine, if you will, a site that takes you inside the bedroom of a couple expressing their love for each other, going deeper than lurid snapshots and low-refresh webcams; going deeper than sounds, deeper than motion. Through this medium, we can be taken inside the minds, hearts, and souls of those two people. We know what they think. We feel what they feel. We desire what they desire. We get to the core of their hellish unfulfilled desire for love. Such a site exists. [skinonskinonskin] is this site. The intro to the site is beautiful. A soft female vocal track swoons about the desire of love, of being a woman on fire, with a woman’s breath underneath a melodic loop that evokes you into feeling what she feels. Entering the site, you are taken into the beginning of a 90-minute experience that explores in indescribable terms the eroticism of love, desire, and passion of which we will never attain, and the hell created by that lack.

This is a project of hell.com, a small, extremely exclusive group of new media artists who collaborate on projects and exhibitions such as skinonskinonskin and [fakeshop] which are crafted and skilled to make us feel something, to evoke us into seeing something we’ve not looked closely at before, into being someone we never thought we’d be.

This inspires me. I’ve had thoughts of using the web as a fundamental artistic channel, but never on this level. This incites me to create. New muses are speaking to me. Hence the poem and the presentation of it at the front of this site. I want to use this medium, these new technologies not for the sake of using them, but ultimately, to mean something.

I want to go where I can express something in not so many words. The thought of what can be done chills me. I want to express emotion – I want to use a “writer’s mind” to conjure a world for you to become absorbed in. I want to find that deeper poetry.

1999-09-27 The Farm: page2 (from the archives)

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Creating a monster

It’s been a while since I spoke online. I know. I have times where some of my muses grow silent, and occasionally other muses speak up after their turn with silence. Most of my time of late has been spent doing other things on my computer. I’m working on a song which I’m kinda proud of. The style is my version of old-school dance-techno with a dark “monster mash” spin. Kinda humorous.

I got the itch to write music about a week or so ago, and this time, instead of cutting and pasting sound files together in Cool Edit, I decided to go online and look into some serious software multitrack programs. Most I found were lame, but a few I’ve found shine through. I’m giving them a spin, and we’ll see how it all works out. When my song is finished (and when I feel good about releasing it), I’ll post it on [mp3.com] and I’ll tell you where it is so you can check it out whenever you like. (If you want, I could tell you when it’s posted.)

I’ve also started doing some image editing as a gift for some friends. I’ve decided that last year’s Renfest pictures needed some good old-fashioned touching up. Most of the pictures I took last year were pretty good, but I’ll be damned if there weren’t mundanes in almost every picture! Clone brush be my friend…. A few images will provide short work of removing the mundanes from the frame, but others will take a little more time. No big deal, though.

Speaking of Renfest, I’m gearing-up to go to this year’s festivities. Me and my large, large group of friends are going this year on the weekend before Halloween, October 22, 23, 24, and 25, and just about all of that will be a blissful repeat of last year’s drunken orgy of a good time, with (hopefully) less rain, dammit!

I’m making lists of what I need to do / get / pack beforehand so when we leave, which is exactly four weeks away, I’ll be plenty prepared to camp and have a good time. Due to the preparations, my big-assed-doohickey-of-a-website project I’ve mentioned will be on the back burner for a while. No loss, to be sure. As our motto goes: I’ll do (such-and-such) … AFTER RENFEST!

So, now, the urgency for a real job has hit me hard. Gotta have money to go to Renfest, see?

We’ll see how it goes.

1999-09-02 The Farm: thoughts (from the archives)

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[thoughts] something to consider.

Wherever we may roam-

The workforce in technology has changed tremendously in the past decade. Change leaves its touch not only on the people in the workforce, but has also touched the structure of that workforce in ways that enable those people with the tools and skills to free themselves from the age-old “our team forever or bust” ideal. Here’s my argument.

The widespread use of technology in business has sped us up – we do things faster, we find it more profitable to run our businesses as orchestrated parts as opposed to running them as monolithic wholes. Business structures are no longer seen as a body with internal organs working with each other in a closed ecosystem. We see businesses increasingly as neighborhoods where we reach out, know our neighbors, and make best use of each other’s resources – we outsource more and use more temporary contract labor. Much of the quicker-moving businesses consist of people acting as free-agents who are able to look out for themselves and service whoever will pay them.We see business as a world of independent nation-states, each of them making deals and moving as directed by the organizing central core. To change directions, a business need only to change its component parts, to close deals with some and begin deals with others in reaction to need.

On a human scale, this is a very beneficial time for those who have the skills and can find the jobs. Those people are the ones who have the advanced skill sets, the knowledge of esoteric technologies, the things that are highly sought-after. These people have to be excellent salespeople. Their number-one product is themselves.

On the other end, it makes difficultly for those who cannot, or are not good enough, to promote their services. They may have the good skill sets, but in some way, they’re not good at landing the contracts.

There are also those who can sell themselves well, but may either lack the skills or their skills are in low demand. Where once HTML programmers were in high demand, those jobs are now handed out as entry-level positions as more people learn the language and as more technologies emerge to automatically generate HTML. The people who are good at selling themselves but lack what they need may opt to put their sales skills to better use in selling the skills of others. We now have a whole industry that specializes in placing contract labor into technology jobs.

For those who are new to the technology fields or still young in this realm of the free agent world are finding it more difficult to get a foothold and become established. As newer technologies emerge, it is those who grasp those technologies while they are still young who will jetison into positions of mastership and expertise. Those are the things to take aim for as well as keeping an eye on the current staple technologies as a foundation. Training and education take the free agents far, but attention must also be kept towards research and discovery, to grasp the new things and hold on as they develop.

As free agents in a growing, faster changing workforce, they begin to chip away at the long-held bastion of employment: the pension. As free agents, we rely more on our own independent retirement accounts and less on the standard of “twenty years and a gold watch.” In the past 20 years we’ve seen an immense growth in the usage of IRA’s which travel with us as we go from job to job; the constant threat of downsizing and the increasing insecurity of jobs demands it if we wish to ensure our preferred quality of life throughout our lives.

The existence of IRA’s is a strong indication of modern business’s direction towards the nation-state status. With our skill sets, our salesmanship, and our tools, we carry with us everything we need as if we were crossing the vast landscape from village to village in a journey of selling our wares.

The current of modern business puts a larger portion of the workforce into a place where we act as drops of rainwater that form into puddles, only to evaporate when needed and precipitate into other puddles. It’s the giving-away of corporate monogamy to the one-man shops of skilled craftsmen; it’s the idea of the new ways – we go where we’re needed, we fight and compete for places to be, we trade services with those who have the goods to trade. Industrial ideologies yield to technological methodologies.

We are the nomads.

1999-09-02 The Farm: page2 (from the archives)

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[page 2] what’s important to me.

Growth – old becomes new

Welcome to the new design of The Farm. A simple update was past due, but I had decided that the old format, though cool, was getting tiresome.The old design was designed to take full advantage of the entire browser window and could therefore “self-heal,” but the self-healing format of it was restricting me on the complexity of the layout. I wanted to try-out some new ideas, go back to setting up a mostly self-healing design that would vertically resize while restricting the layout horizontally to 600 pixels. It was only in this way that I could exercise some new concepts I’ve been wanting to do.This design is another step into the direction I want to go with my site design. In case you noticed the swooping title logo (for those with the later browsers), I’ve been teaching myself a lot about dynamic HTML (DHTML). My future design, which is in the works, will rely heavily on DHTML’s abilities to move objects around in the window and to provide a single page to access the entire site through a persistent user interface.

The aim with all of this is to provide this interface in a way that will fully operate “cross-browser” in Netscape Navigator 4.0 and above as well as Microsoft Internet Explorer 4.0 and above, and also allow for graceful degrading in older browsers which don’t support DHTML features. This involves actually writing two seperate, but interchangeable, interfaces with similar basic functionality. But the real rub is the cross-browser bit.

All those years of being a Netscape evangelist, and now I’m wondering where their glamor has gone. Internet Explorer is so much more simple and powerful. Feh. Hopefully Netscape Navigator 5 will catch up and support a more powerful document object model.

On a good note, I am now employed. I work for [drugstore.com]. I start this friday night. My work hours, in theory, are from 7pm to 7am friday night, saturday night, and sunday night. My job title will be “packing,” which is a fancy way of saying “order verification.” I dread going to work, but it’ll be very good to work again. My sanity is saved from complete obliteration.

The upside to working the weekend shift is that I have four whole days during the week to continue my search for more gainful, dependable employment. I continue to drop-off applications and resumes and dig around online for work either here in Texarkana or down in Austin. I may possibly pick up another part-time job for two or three days a week to make up for lost time. My bills are so pitifully behind, that sounds like a good option. I must only keep my eyes on the light at the end of the tunnel.

That light is independance in Austin.

[Write] me, call me, keep in touch. Except for the weekends, I’ll be around.


1999-08-08 The Farm: current news (from the archives)

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Ongoing Goings-On: current news

What is there to say? I start a new job tomorrow which may or may not pan out.

When I clock-in tomorrow morning, I will be one hour shy of being unemployed for a whole sixty days. It’ll feel good to work again.

Whether this new job works out in a favorable manner or not, I’m ready to get back into the flow of society. These past two months have done their part in disorienting me enough to where I’ll take anything that comes along.

Hence, this job.

My bills are seriously far behind, and the spectre of dealing with them looms over me, but I can catch up and take care of them soon enough. I have that much faith. Actually, the sobriety of taking care of business feels good. I’m starting to have a purpose again, and I’m pleased.

It’s all gonna work out by the time it’s over with. I believe that.

At least that’s what Manic of the dynamic-duo Manic-Depressive is telling me.